On Writing Lovey Dovey Stuff

Hola!! 

Akhirnya dibuka lagi blognya. 
 
Side note: I was thinking of posting my Rectoverso The Movie review before this, but um I decided against it. The things I was going to say is not pretty (to say the least) and let's just say I kinda fear the reaction afterwards (not that my blog is read by so many people - none? - but you'll never know). But I'll post it later if I have nothing else to do (other than watching kdramas, of course)

So. Had a funny experience last weekend. I went out with a dear friend of mine and she asked: "Why the hell did you write all that lovey dovey stuff?" 

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Di suatu hari. Di suatu sudut. Di suatu waktu.

Dia terdiam.
Dan aku pun tak tahu harus bicara apa.

Haruskah kuraih tangannya, memeluk bahunya dan membisikkan kata penghiburan di telinganya?
Haruskah kuberitahu dirinya bahwa "Semua akan baik-baik saja?"

Tapi aku tahu dan dia pun tahu.
Bahwa tidak ada satu hal pun yang akan "baik-baik saja"
Bahwa semua yang pernah menjadi retak tak akan pernah kembali utuh.
Bahwa semua yang pernah gelap tak akan pernah benar-benar kembali terang.
Bahwa semua yang pernah mencecap pahit tak akan pernah bisa lagi benar-benar merasakan manis.

Aku tahu dan dia pun tahu.
Semua ucapan meninggalkan gema.
Semua cahaya meninggalkan bayangan.
semua kenangan meninggalkan jejak.

Aku tahu dan dia pun tahu.
Bahwa melarikan diri tak akan menjadi jawaban.
Karena semua yang terjadi di masa lalu akan selalu kembali datang di masa kini.
Seperti hantu keras kepala yang terus bercokol di sudut ruangan yang gelap dan lembab.

Dia terdiam.
Dan aku hanya bisa menemaninya dalam diam.
Berbagi sunyi dan sebuah kesadaran pahit.
Bahwa tak ada satu pun yang bisa diriku atau dirinya lakukan.


#pfft #excerpt #randomthoughts

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The "Oh Shit. I'm Old" Day

(Written around 7 hours after officially being 27)

Picture taken from here. Coincidentally, the article from where the picture was taken discussed about what it is like being 30 and 'left behind' by almost all your friends. Read up. Good one (or not so good for singles)

Oh well. A couple of years ago I thought of birthdays as special occasions that needed to be celebrated differently. I usually made special plan to do something with friends or anyone available and then I also made a list of target that I would like myself to do after being one year older (albeit I never actually did something to accomplish it. The act of making the list is what's important). Generally, I would feel optimistic and happy and upbeat.

This year though, I feel differently. There is this anticlimactic feeling that I have when I realize that today is my 27th birthday. I don't feel like making special plans or anything. I am happy enough to receive congratulatory messages from family and friends but that's about it. I don't feel like going out and do something special. I can't event think of making that yearly to-do-list. All I'm doing, the first time I woke up this morning, is looking back for all the things that I've done throughout the year and suddenly one realization hits me hard and cold.  

What the fuck have I been doing? I haven't actually done anything. I spent time doing nothing for 27 years.

Okay. To be fair, I did do some things.

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Bigbang Alive Galaxy Tour Indonesia 2012: A Mixed Bag of Perfection and Disappointment

(Warning: This is going to be a long post. Namanya aja curhat)

Bigbang is perfection.

Okay barangkali saya memang sedikit bias mengingat Bigbang adalah boyband Korea favorit saya (my journey with Kpop begins with them and thus, they always have this special spot in my heart) but objectively, konser Bigbang kemarin malam sangat memuaskan. Mulai dari aksi panggung yang tertata rapi, lighting dan efek panggung yang cukup membangun suasana sampai sound dan audio yang bombastis (kuping saya masih terasa berdengung beberapa saat setelah keluar dari venue. Not that I'm complaining). Overall, Bigbang delivered what was expected from them and then some.

Tapi, cerita saya tidak berhenti di paragraf pertama saja. Ada beberapa kekecewaan yang rasakan ketika menonton konser Bigbang kemarin malam dan kekecewaan tersebut sedikit banyak mengurangi antuasisme saya menonton konser Bigbang kemarin.

Loh memangnya saya kecewa kenapa? Oh banyak. 

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The Dark Knight Rises Review

Picture taken from here

Hey! It's been a while! 

(As always, apologies for the bad english ahead)

I have a confession to make. I thought that The Avengers was going to be the most epic action movie that I have ever  seen this year. But I'm happily surprised to see how The Dark Knight Rises also presents some epics for my entertainment. I have so many things that I love about this movie. Let's talk about the director first. Since Batman Begins, I always in love with the dark tone and moody atmosphere that Chris Nolan brings into his Batman Trilogy, including the Dark Knight Rises (although personally I think this last movie is not as dark as its predecessors. But still dark enough compared to other superheroes movie, say The Avengers). I also love the realistic potrayal of every characters' complexity in this movie. Nobody is portrayed in a simple black and white manner (The character Rachel Dawes is probably the only exception, because somehow she always looks like the little damsel in distress in my eyes. So thank God, she's dead?). Each of the portrayals has its roots on basic human psychology - whether it's fear, greed or love - and that is what makes every characters in this movie have interesting little details that adds value into the story, instead of being jokey or mere filler for the movie plot. Every potrayals (especially the villanious ones. Heath Ledgers takes the cake as Joker) give me creeps. They make me put aside the thought of ever living in the City of Gotham, regardless of the presence of a sexy city guardian.

Speaking of city guardian, hello hot older guy! 

Picture taken from here

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